Deep down I know I'm a good Mom. Way deep down, beneath the layers upon layers of doubt. Past the scar tissue of insecurities and the almost never ending sea of guilt when I stumble upon my heart. After I had children it no longer was beating for me, it was all for my boys. Every single beat.
I know I'm a good mom when I look in the review
mirror at a tightly secured child in his car seat knowing it may have been a
struggle, but I put him there.
I know I'm a good mom when taking a walk, I reach
my arm down and extend my hand in a blind reach knowing it will be met with a
tiny hand reaching up.
I know I'm a good mom when I know very well that a
Happy Meal is not a real meal, but will make someone very very happy.
I know I'm a good mom when my son is the only boy
picking dandelions during a soccer game and I take a picture and post it all
over on social media because I'm just as proud as if he had scored a goal.
I know I'm a good mom when I check on them long
after they have fallen asleep just one more time to make sure they are
breathing.
I know I'm a good mom when my son looks both ways
when he crosses the street on his own.
I know I'm a good mom when my oldest says I have
ruined his life and still kisses me goodnight.
I know I'm good mom when I can sleep with my eyes
shut and my ears open.
I know I'm a good mom when my son’s laughter can
cause me to smile even when it's not funny.
I know I’m a good mom when I know the difference in
a ninja fight between “ wahpicht and paching”
I know I'm a good mom when I get excited to have
them away at camp but after the first night I feel like I have an empty nest,
and I want them back again.
I know I'm a good mom when my child can wipe
himself…thank God.
I know I'm a good mom when I feel like I'm not.
I know I'm a good mom when I not so patiently wait
for my son to put his shoes on when we are already 10 minutes late.
I know I'm a good mom when I step out of his way
when I know he is going to make a mistake.
I know I'm a good mom because I will wipe his tears
whether the cause is physical pain or emotional.
I know I'm a good mom because I will keep telling
myself this until I finally believe it.
If you are here, listening to this, you are a good Mom
too, or maybe you know one. You care enough to support another woman who
is just as protective, vulnerable and completely head over heals in love with
her child. Whether that child is at home, has moved far away, or just spent a
short time with you on this Earth.
You are a good mom because you know that when you dig deep down, your
heart will always beat loudest for the ones who were once closest to it.
